Psychology of Unaddiction to Food

 July 31 I had to kill some time today so I looked into the mediterranean diet, since most of the internet is convinced it's the best one.  Yesterday's dinner with mom and dad proved a little different. She didnt talk about the dieting or the cheetos (although we did have them) but is focused on dad's upcoming hip surgery.  Despite that, I still had both a hamburger and a hotdog, chips and cheetos. And rootbeer.  And seconds on the cheetos because they were so good and had been on my mind.  So it's more about remembering how good they were and wanting more of the bad stuff from what I can tell.  I read up on the mediterranean diet (not as in to lose weight but to eat healthy, diet as in what you eat not weight loss.. am I making sense?) Anyway it looks like the pattern of eating is like this:  Eggs or whole grain toast or oats for breakfast, salad or soup for lunch, fish 4x a week, chicken, lean beef 1x a week. They have you have a snack between lunch ...

 July 30 Weighed in today and I am considering weighing in daily to see the ups and downs. In the grand scheme of things, I keep losing and gaining the same 5 pounds, so even though I did lose a pound or so, it's in that same window. Now if I could get outside that window I'd feel like I'm breaking loose.  I've never been too concerned about people knowing my numbers. I'm 52 going on 53, and I'm 182 pounds going on 160. Do you want another number? I'm 5'2".  You might look at that and think hmm, 160 may not be low enough. And it may not. But I want to see how I look at that weight and decide if its worth it to go lower. I am going solely on how I feel at that weight. Because I've gone down to the 140s and I didnt feel well. I'm not going to sustain that weight if I feel sick.  I'm going to go get ready for a visit with Mom and Dad now. They've also had weight issues, the ups and downs, on a perpetual diet of some kind or other as far...

 July 29 - The Psychology of Unaddiction to Food I woke up this morning  contemplating why it is I cannot lose weight and then keep it off.  I have woken up with this thought every morning, for most of my life. I can remember being as young as 12, trying to figure out how not to go on a binge.  They say you as you get older you get wiser, but I am now 52 and I feel like I don't know much more about it than when I became conscious that I had a weight problem, possibly at 12 years old.  I decided a couple of things today. I would open a new blog and I would write in it everyday until I get this figured out. I do believe I won't need to blog for the rest of my life, so this should have an end date.  I am, for the most part, a process person. I look at processes at work and I find ways to make them better; whether it's new information that needs to be incorporated, new directions, new video formats for training, or better ways of understanding the problems...